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The girl next door♥  Dirah Rahim
I was borned on the 8 April 1992. I'm too young to be driving but old enough to be in love.
Music is the love and she can't live without it because she'll lose her head.She like bright neon colours and city highways
filled with red cars, rainy sunday afternoons.She also a die-hard fan of Hersheys and Fondu.And She loves Pink!
Teach me how to dance bby! .
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Saturday, October 31, 2009
Study Study Study  Im so stress right now. My Chemistry & Social studies paper is on Monday. I swear im gonna freak out when i got that paper. I need to study. Memorise more facts. Okay,Dyrah you got to calm down & start to open your book and study. Im gonna just sit on this chair and study all the way till i gt all the points. Im in love with my stranger.
 Fza,i miss being with you! This few days we didn't quite spend our time together. OMG! I really miss those days we spend our time together. Maybe after our O's we can go out and spend time together. My world are your world honey. There's so many things to be share with you when we got the chance to go out together. I love you Fza.
I went for an interview yesterday at Takashimaya building. But the job that i apply was on healthcare,as an admin. If i gt the job maybe i will be posted at the Tan Tock Seng hospital, Singapore General Hospital Or Geylang polyclinics. Ouh god,i just can't wait to work. I need money right now cos im really really broke. Even 1 bucks is difficult to get. Yeah,besides im really happy to know this stranger at the McDonald. Im quite shocked to see him there when Faris brought me to the place he currently sits. In the first place i was quite shy cos this one kind of feelings suddenly appears. I can't say no more here. But what i can only say is that this stranger really change everything in my life. He is someone special. I wish i could express all my feelings here. But i can't cos im nt ready to let it be public. Let it just be part of me. Furthermore,i just knew him so it impossible for me to say it all here. Btw nice talking on the phone with you. Yeah,u such a caring person. With Love, Your Lovely Stranger Friday, October 30, 2009
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Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Today Math paper was quite easy but i havespoiled everything cos i never fill in the answer at the answer column & i know that the answer is correct. It so stupid of me,wasting marks just like that. Nevermind,now it has end. I could not do anything more. Yeah,just now on my way to have my lunch, Firah & me walked past this bunch of guys. Some of them were my schoolmates & they were the lower sec. One of their outsider friends was like looking at me. He said "Muke die mcm cine siak." I was like,im malay & you don't need to make a fuss bout it. Monday, October 26, 2009
I hate myself for not putting the best shot.What the hell am i doing?? Im scared right now. Really really scared. I wanna pass my English. Atleast a pass will do. I can't afford to fail my English. It too late to cry. Everything has end. Now i just have to move on. Im gonna prepare for my English O'level today. Ouh god time fly so fast that i just could not imagine that im gonna take my paper today afternoon. B'cos i feels like im nt well-prepared for my English paper. I wish that i could turns time back. Nooo Dyrah, Nooo. *Wink* Yeah,im gonna bath & change at 9.30am cos am meeting Fza at the bus stop opposite McDonald. She's going to borrow me her English notes on how to start a incident report,proposal, speech,complaint,informal & formal letter. There's so many things to be memorise. Okay,im gonna clean the house before i go. Till here. Dyrah.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
The air-condition makes me feel scared for my English O'leveltomorrow. It freaking me out. This subject is really my important subject. Ouh god,i just need to calm down cos i still could not sleep. My paper 1 start at 1.30pm followed by my paper 2 at 4pm. It will ends at 5.40pm. All my hardworks has come to the end. Now what i can say is just Goodluck to myself. Fza,Bella,Firah,Mun & all my fellow classmates goodluck for your English O'level paper. Gonna miss all of your laughter. I'll never forget all the memories since we were in 3G,4G & 5B. Hope to see you all again & have reunion together. It gonna be fun to see changes in all of you. Lets put aside all the gossipers,grudges,hatred & conflicts in our class. Yeah,and i wanna thanks to all the teachers that has help us in our studies. Hope i could produce a good result next year. If im nt wrong our result will be on early January. I feels so weird cos i've no chance to see you today cos im locking myself in my room so that i will never go out. This happened cos i have an important exam and this important exam decide my future. I wanna have a brighter furture so that i could takecare of my family in future. So yeah,feels like missing you. Hey,im just depending on my blog to express my feelings towards you. Even though it does not listen to my stories. It does give me space to express my feelings. ****** what if bit by bit am falling for you and i don't even know you? It sounds weird but i could not stop loving you cos im really really in love with a stranger like you. If i have a chance to be with you,i'll never neglect you. Infact,i'll always love you with all my hearts. As long as im breathing you will always in my heart. If im writing this way that shows i really mean it. Don't underestimate my love towards you. It has been nearly a week & you still did nothing. Am really curious about you. I need your response not your silence. Day by day am hoping that you will say something,eventually im wrong bout that. Maybe i need some help here. But who gonna listen with my sickening story?? I don't know, I guess i have to help myself. Listen,im a type of girl, if you tell me straight forward bout your feelings i'll understand and i'll do something with it. But if you gonna keep quiet like this how am i gonna take actions. Look,how hard it is for me to go through, I'll just take it pace by pace. Getting hurt is not my first time. Im okay with it. I know it will hurt me deeply if you gonna tell me the negative part. But this will take only for the beginning, This will takes time. I know you know this. Look,i'll never give up until i got the answer. This is me. Be strong in order to face the fact in future. Even though you have tell me the negative part,i'll still have feelings for you. I don't know why. Cos as time passes by,my feelings start to grow more stronger. I know it sounds crazy but this is how i feel right now. EX-Primary School classmates. Hidayah & Atiqah    Went out with them just now. Meet Atiqah under my void deck & went straight to Centry square so called as 'DINNER' but it was like 8.15pm. Noo Nooo Nooo,it is super. Haha. I guess sooo. And we ate at the Popeye cos Atiqah wanted to treat me. Haha! it is sooo kind of her & i appreciate it alots. While waiting for seat Atiqah & me was like searching for him but failed. After a moment i was like saw him in a middle of no where. & i told Atiqah that he was around there. She managed to find him. & yeah,she said "Nie kau kate hansem?? Eeee,tak la." But for me Handsome or Ugly later can think. For now it about my feelings toward him. I really don't care bout looks when there is feelings. B'cos i don't think that im a pretty girl & deserved a handsome guy. That's not true anyway. Everything must come from your heart. When there's a will there's a way. Familiar with this phrase? I don't know whether he realised me or not cos i don't quite look at him cos too shy to look. Haha. While eating,we wait for Hidayah. & there she come. She ordered her food & eat with us. After that take some pictures & went home. But i don't exactly went home. B'cos me and Atiqah planned to stay abit longer near our blocks to share some stories. So called as "Girls Talk" haha. It quite interesting to share some story with. & it about my admirer & her admirer. Nooo nooo nooo,not her admirer,some sort of Lover??? Yeah,i guess sooo. & she understand me. She made my day. I really appreciate her. After sooo long we never met yet she can understand my personal life story. Thanks Atiqah. It a pleasure to to see you & have some talks with. Yeah,go and settle things out with him. He'll understand. Remember in a relationship there must be a trust & understanding. Hey ladies,im sorry about today. I know i have messed our planned today & am really really sorry. I didn't mean to leave you all just like that Im messed up. Im gonna confess here. It up to you all to read it or not. Actually im kind the miss him & really wanna see him. I just can't control myself. Everyone have different ways of solving things out. But this is my way & my life. If you all can't understand me it okay but atleast forgive me. I felt guilty to the three of you. I tried many ways so that i can see him. I know im selfish but this happen when it comes to him. Me myself also do not realise what i have done. After all this has happened then i realise what am doing to you. But seriously i don't mean it. It just happen like that. Im really really sorry.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
OMG! Im so exhausted right now. Just finished cleaning the house like mad with my unwell condition. Im sick but just a slight cough but it becoming worst. I can't stand with this messy house & decided to clean it. Vacuum,fold clothes,make my bed,wash clothes & now waiting for the clothes to be wash so that i can hang it. Im soooo messed up cos my parents is not in S'pore. They went to KL Thursday night cos they miss Humaira & want to help some cleaning at sister house that has just move in at Selayang, quite near to the KLCC. Left with me & my eldest brother at home. I tell you staying home with my brother feels like staying with the statue. B'cos we hardly talk to each other if there is a need then we will talk. If not we will do our own stuff. But one thing,he is just a pain in the ass cos after he have ate & messed up the house. Im the one who will clean all those stuff that he had done. He think what my parents hired me to be a servant for him issit. For god sake im the youngest,sooo i have to obey him & take all the pieces by my own without tellling my parent about his behaviour. But if it comes to an extent that i could not take it no more. I'll complained to my parents bout him. Bluek! Bluek! Now im waiting for my tuition tuitor. Im gonna have tuition for maths cos my O'level Maths is on Tuesday & Wednesday! Damn! Im aiming for B3 or A2, Yeah,and im waiting for Bella,Firah & Fza to come to my house and study together. Maybe Mun is tagging along too. NUWAIRATUL HUMAIRA I miss my niece so much. Can't wait to go KL and see her.    Friday, October 23, 2009
Today,i feel soo happy. I just could not describe my feelings,feel like fainting after i saw him again. I always get nervous when i saw him,idk why but this feelings suddenly appears when he is there. Just now,planned with Fza to study together. &i suggested that we study at Tampines cos we often study at Bedok library & Mc Cafe. At tampines,i wanted to eat & study at Popeye. But then the place was crowded with many people. After Fza has gone to the toilet,suddenly someone approached & came to me. He called by my name that my friends use to call me when i don't even know him. For god sake i saw his name cos he works dere & he supposed to wear a name tag. "Carik ****** eh?" with his curious face. "Tak la,nk mkn kat cni" I answered him in a convincing way. "Ouhkae,Firdaus smue mane?" He asked. "Ntah,Dyrah mane rapat nan drg sgt."He smiled. "Nape that time hafiz try contact dyrah tapi tk dpt?" He asked. "Huh? Mane ade die cntct?" & we end the conversation dere. After then i went in and asked him. "****** tk keje nari?" "Tak,Die keje besok & Sunday". He answered. Then Fza came by,but still we could not get a seat. She gets irritated & suggest to study at some where else. End up we study at Tampines 1. After so long we have studied,i was craving to eat at Popeye. Fza agree & we went there around 4.30pm. When we reached dere,i saw H & his friend has packed up cos they have finished their job,while i & Fza were queing up. I felt release when they has gone out of the Popeye. Suddenly I felt like i wanna go to the ladies. When i wanted to turn i saw that ******,H & his friend came by the entry from the toilet. I was sooooooo SHOCKED and could not move my legs to the ladies b'cos i was nervous. H Shouted my name many times. "Dyrah! Dyrah! Nadirah!" I turned and he said. "****** ni! Bobal uh." I was sooo shy & ****** gave me a smile & i reply it bck with a smile too. Until i could not take it.I force myself to go to the ladies. After that i went towards Fza. She was still queing & ****** was beside her cos he wanted to see his friend. Then Fza says "See i told you,jodoh" & i say " No la,shut up! Nonsense ok" i went to my seat & wait for her.Then ****** & his friend walked away. Ouh God,i just could not say anything about this situation. I feels like theres something special about him. As i said,he will always be in my mind wherever i go.
Went study with Fza at Tampines 1. And we managed to absorb something.      
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Countdown to GCE 'O' Level Exams. This is making me more nervous.    
Love Never Ending  Even though your heart was given to someone else,i never think that you will gone forever. Even though you wanna be faithful to that lucky person,i put it to fate that one day we were made together. All this are only my imagination. What next i leave it to fate. B'cos im not a fairy godmother that can decide people live what more me myself. I really don't understand with my feelings after i get to know the truth. Everything happened coincidencely, get to see you wherever i go in tampines. If you are really made for someone else,i surrender. &just keep you in my heart. Im not so cruel to make you leave your lady & come to me. Infact,i just want you to be faithful to her. As long as you happy,i'll be happy for you. I'll always wait for you even for a years. B'cos in my heart there's always you,wherever i go,there will always be you. To me you never leave me cos you will always be in my mind. In my life,theres nothing make me smile except you. Lots of love, Dyrah.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Yesterday,went for a last minute study wif Firah. & i just knew it after i have meet Firah that Fir is tagging along. I could not deny & agree to her decision. I study my history but i could not really focus on what am reading. Yeah,then firah noticed one of Fir friend. It was the guy that i've been admiring since he was in pri 6. He is 2 years younger than me but that does not matter. What matters is,i always saw him at TM. & i found it crazy to see him just now again!. Am really happy today. Huhu! & get to know that he works at Popeye. Then Faris tag along. After studying me and the others planned to go for bowling at E-Hub. & we did. I had alot of fun with them. Guess what. For the first time i won. Twice! I got strike! Fuhhhh! Mane bole tashan. I got 112 for my score & i beat all of them. Followed by Firah,Fir & Faris. How come the girls can beat the guys?? I may look girlish but don't judge me by it cover. :P    
Sunday, October 18, 2009
STOP ALL YOUR NONSENSE & GET ON STUDY How tired i am,i must pushed myself to study. I must have determination. Just focused on what im aiming for. In the middle of the night i still couldn't sleep b'cos im pressurizing myself on my upcoming O'levels. It freaking me out when i did a last minute study especially for my Humanities & Chemistry. What im scared right now is my english. How am i going to work out on my english when it is on the 26th of october. Yeah,i do have personel coaching but will that prove me that my english i could score?? I don't think so b'cos i couldn't just depend on my teacher. I just have to bare this im mind. "if there's a will,there's a way" Starting on today i just need to put my head on my studies b'cos my journey could not ends here. Yeah,that the spirit. Saturday, October 17, 2009
Dyrah Rahim.               
Miss those days with her. I love you girl. Your presence make me change into someone.       
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